OMG what shall I do? :'( Please give advice?

You have trust issues that are going to keep you from being happy with anyone unti you get over them. If you're constantly suspicious of guy's female friends you're going to be alone. Maybe you have self esteem issues, or maybe you're just selfish and want to be the only woman in your boyfriend's life, but whatever it is, it's sabotaging your happiness. You can pick either guy you want, but yo aren't going to be happy with him until you fix your issues.